Hi!

Thank you for joining me. I can’t promise this blog will always make sense as my sentences seem to start in one place and drift to many, many others. However, I can promise you that I will be honest and open about my journey. As listening to others problems and struggles with day to day, diagnosis and… Well everything, to be honest, is what has made me come to realise that there might be something wrong with my brain too.

I have felt like something was wrong since I was very young. Probably from around year 3 (that’s 7-8 year olds in the UK). I struggled with friendships. I was chatty in class but couldn’t always focus. I was told if I applied myself, I could really do so well. As I got older, I though I might be higher on the spectrum than most people – everyone is on there somewhere! Social situations felt hard, talking was a matter of reminding myself that *you’re meant to ask questions too* and then not being able to focus on the conversation. I would just butt-in with what I had to say, because I physically couldn’t not. That was normal though right? My mum does that all the time…

It was not until the funny Tiktok’s, the reels on instagram, Pinterest hints and my friends sending me memes laughing that it was ‘me’ or ‘us’, that it began to sink in. I though only little boys could have ADHD? Turns out that adults can have it too and it is not gender bound!

I spent hours watching and reading and researching trying to work out if I was self diagnosing, because I’d seen videos, or if it was actually the real deal. I started to show these to my husband, who would laugh at the similarities. He has been super supportive, acknowledging that my low moods or spacing out isn’t anything to do with him and does more than his fair share of the day to day jobs to ease my load when I’m struggling. He’s a pretty straight forward man… He told me straight when I asked “Am I over reacting? Might I have ADHD?”… Silence as he looked up from his phone. “I told you I thought you did months ago. I don’t need to say it again”. Ah… Must have missed that…

So I have booked my first appointment with my GP – it’s in a few weeks. I’m aware this is going to be a grueling journey… And that everyone and their mum is trying to be diagnosed currently. So let’s see how it goes! Thanks for reading!

Most ADHD thing I have done this week:

I was unpacking from our mini get away this weekend, we got back around midday yesterday. I got distracted by making cabinet doors the the project I started a couple of months ago, to organising our weekly meals by expiry date, to trying a new watering hack for my plants I saw on Pinterest, to ordering more wool to attempt more crocheting … The list goes on. Essentially I ended up cleaning behind my fridge, which honestly has needed doing since we moved in last year, and the bags are still not unpacked